Böööö!!

Hani o gün diyordun ya, insanlar ne çabuk korkar oldu ilişkilerden ya da gelecekten bahsetmeye diye... Sinir oluyordun hani her söylediğin şeyi bir teklif olarak algılayanlara, hiç mi düşüncelerimi açıklayamayacağım diye kızıyordun. Eeee şimdi ne oldu? Böööö diye bağırdığımı hatırlamıyorum... nereye kayboldun öyle birden??

Unleash me!

Gees! I indeed AM under her influence... and she is so clever. She shows her claws whenever I am ready to take action on something she doesn't approve. Not before, not when I am ONLY talking about the action I am gonna take... She keeps silent. But when I open my heart to her, when she sees me determent, she says something like "well, don't you think... well, I am concerned that..." and boom! Suddenly and unconsciously I am concerned too! My brain cells are so well adjusted to obey her that it even feels like an instinct. I believe that they are MY thoughts, that I decided NOT to do it.... but no, it is her who is talking through my lips. I am living in a micro Matrix... Even if it wasn't for my friends who show me the reality, I would end up becoming her eventually... and the more I realize the truth, the more I am alienated from her... and from myself. Set me free!