Yangın var...

İsyan

Kırılmış her yanım, akar kanım bembeyaz sokaklara... Erişemem, uzanamam kollarına... Yatıyorum kabuslara... Uyanmamacasına.

Incomparable

Will there be a time when I stop comparing you with others? Is there a person who will make me stop thinking about you? Can anyone replace you, find a place in my heart which has not already been filled by you? You are drawning my soul... You are blinding my eyes towards anybody else... I only see you, I desire only you...

Too tired to try

I need it to be easy and smooth... It should be a time for me only to sit back and watch the show. I want to be convinced that life would be much better if I say yes. Otherwise I am too tired to try anymore. Too old to struggle...

Hamal

Ne iş yaparsın sen, dedi. Hamalım ben, dedim. Nasıl yani, dedi. Elimden tutmasını bilenin yüreğini taşırım, dedim. Sunay Akın

Numbing mixture of feelings...

Back of my head is numb... feels like inside my head, a string attached to my eyebrows is being pulled through my skull to the opposite direction,creating a perfect straight line... and, feels like on this string, there dangles a weight of ton, heavy on my neck... You can visualize it as one of those sophisticated office decorations that look against the law of physics. Metal balls knocking each other continuously... This is caused by a mixture of overjoy, gratitude, relief and a terrifying concern for a child's life... to rejoice or to fear, to smile or to shiver, is he saved or in danger?

Ayıp

Hayat bana esas önemli olanın ne olduğunu apaçık gösterirken, ben hala değersiz şeylerin peşinden üzülerek hayata ayıp ediyorum sanırım... sonra o da bana ayıp ediyor işte böyle.