Numbing mixture of feelings...

Back of my head is numb... feels like inside my head, a string attached to my eyebrows is being pulled through my skull to the opposite direction,creating a perfect straight line... and, feels like on this string, there dangles a weight of ton, heavy on my neck... You can visualize it as one of those sophisticated office decorations that look against the law of physics. Metal balls knocking each other continuously... This is caused by a mixture of overjoy, gratitude, relief and a terrifying concern for a child's life... to rejoice or to fear, to smile or to shiver, is he saved or in danger?